Apr 16

6 Years Ago Today…


Six years ago today, I wrote She’s Still A Queen. (I only knew that because of the TimeHop app, so this particular writing wasn’t planned and I should be on my way to work right now.) Only a handful of people knew that She’s Still A Queen is about me. When I wrote it, although I was deeply thinking about how I even reached that point, I did it with a Kanye shrug and kept moving. I thought nothing of it. I said to myself, “I’m in this. I’m here now and I have to get through it. This is not a time of weakness.” However, when I read it this morning, I cried. I can honestly say that all of those tears weren’t tears of joy, but through it all, we fared pretty well. I have a college graduate, two college honor students, great friends, love in my life, and I’m happy…things are on the upswing. Yet, it’s difficult to forget how easy it was to get to a point of financial, physical, and emotional instability.

In that blog, I mentioned that I was going through those hardships for a reason. At that time, I did not know that my father was dying, I found out perhaps a month after. I now know that going through that period of homelessness strengthened me to handle my father’s passing, which was only nine months later. True enough, I was a complete mess when he died and it took a long while to bounce back, but I can’t imagine what I would have been without that extra layer of protection (strength).

So many of us have been through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows and just because life is life, I’m quite sure we will meet them again. We are just better prepared to handle the worst downfall and the greatest blessing (even though I’m being tried right now). My personal experiences dictate my every action, as does yours. I only know the path I’ve traveled and the lessons that I’ve learned on my journey thus far. I truly feel like one of the things I should be doing is transparently sharing my story…my testimony. With all of that being said, you may not understand or like the things I’m about to do, but there is nothing that will change. *Insert Kanye Shrug here as I beat my chest and say, “I’m grown!”*  I don’t even understand fully what I’m about to do. I know that I did not go through all of that, to simply rest on my laurels and say, “I’m good now.” As I type this, there is someone going through what I’ve gone through and I know in some way I can be a blessing to them.

“You will never cease to be the most amazed person on earth at what God has done for you on the inside.” ― Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest


  1. Carolyn

    Keep moving up! Outstanding young woman, smart, cute and you know what you want, so go for it! So proud of you and your daughters.

  2. JustTonyaB

    Thank you so much Mrs. Carolyn! :-) You are in my heart!!

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